First unplanned rehearsal for the Resolution! piece

(just one or two things before: I am in Laban, don't know what the hell I am doing here. Anyway, I am in London let's say. I got commissioned to present a piece for resolution! . So I had two workshops/audition and I got to ask some dancers to participate in the project. Every time after the rehearsal we all have to write for 15 mins our thoughts. No processing of thoughs, just write them very fast. Here are my thoughts of the first unplanned rehearsal.)
Today we bagan working. I could see the excitement of people. It is so bizarre start working with new people. I feel afraid. Their smiles and enthusiasm is encouraging. I better stop worrying for once.
Our first task was to think of lonesome. I believe pepole experienced it quite well in this exercise. The space is not very helpful with all of its colours but the people really made an effort with remarkable results. They were all sitting in a corner. There was something about their position. All of us prefered being crooked. As if sad demands you to be little. None moved for a long while. I tried bringing text and suddenly movement came to my body. The voice sort of made me experience deeper and deeper the sensations. I could hear the sensation but could also breath it.
Slowly slowly we started incorporating all text and movement. It became an ecstatic trip, with laughter, cries, tears, solitude... I don't know why I was laughing. Maybe because I was feelind awkward. Maybe because I was so happy that the work is now beginning.
I am worried tha the group got split between trained dancers and rest of performers. Is it because of someone's weaknesses? I guess it has to do with feeling comfortable with each other. For example, I wanted to lift people but was afraid that they might get overwhelmed. Fears, fears, fears... MY fears, not necessarily YOUR fears.
I wanted to do more, but I say that only because I saw that there were already things. My thought though said take it esy Pavlos. You cant do all in one day. Still I now feel we have done A LOT if not almost everything. We are starting to become a group.
Then I assigned a small exercise with hands for a quartet. I guess it was too tough especially because people were not familiar with this kind of working and with score composition,
It was fascinating how people were throwing themselves in the task though. FULLY CONCENTRATED. I wish we had more time. Why is it always that time is running so fast when you create?